"your house looks idyllic"

change house, to today :)
I've realized that I mainly use this website as a online play-by-play of what my days consist of. With a couple of shots of how I feel.
We played Resident Evil 5 for like two hours. Good god. That was stressful. I hate it when I first start a game like that and I'm awful at it. He picks it up so quickly, and I just don't.
Got some Subway while him and jigs went to put air back into Matthew's tire. Perused the mall like the damn Three Musketeers. We went to that weird ass toy store where Forever 21 used to be. Then looked at that calender kiosk.
We were checking out while jigs was talking to pookie's sister and the lady was like, " has anyone ever told you that you look like a young Elizabeth Taylor? You are absolutely gorgeous, your eyes are perfect." It gave me a little confidence boost. I was already sorta self conscious since I didn't put on make-up that morning.
I hardly ever think I'm pretty. I normally think the exact opposite. Before 6 months ago, the only time I've felt genuinely pretty was Prom.
Matthew is aware of my self-conciousness. He knows that I don't find myself attractive. He tells me every time we see each other how he thinks I'm pretty, beautiful, blah blah blah. I truly appreciate it. It's helping me to truly like and love myself.

Then we left the mall, and took an impromptu trip to Appomattox. I drove Jig's trucks. I'm not normally a truck fan, but that truck I love. We went to Delbert's house, where I got to see the sweetest Answer Hound, Pete. :) He's fucking adorable. My beloved Walker was there too. He's such a sweetie. He's one of two dad's in "The Group" Olivia is doll face and just like her daddy. The hairy goat man Seth was also there, but since he shaved recently, he actually wasn't that bad. Haha. That sounds awful. Then Nathan showed up, and it was just awful. Pete can't stand Nathan, I can't really either. He's a little too weird. Haha.

Anyway, this post is fucking long. Damn. I didn't realize it . :P   but this is the only place where I can't honestly post everything that I do, think, and believe.

I don't even care that maybe no one will read it.