that the night turned out how it did.
I want to see you experience all facets of emotion. Not that I'm wishing you horrible situations, I just want to be there to help and guide you through all of them.
We cleaned your room a tad. Played with Boo, and I kept an Eye on Miss Muff. I would scream fucking bloody murder if that damn spider escaped.
You made me lunch, I felt terrible eating it in front of you since you can't eat. But you juiced and felt great afterwards. We then set out for Appomattox.
Stopped to get gas and a Sunday paper, you looking all scholarly riding down the road.
Got to Delbert's and awkwardly found a good spot to sit down and still able to see the TV. My dearest Walker was there! He's probably one of the sweetest ones, second to you of course.
Pookie sentenced Pete to his pen because he shat on the floor. D'awww :'(
Seth was being awkward as fuck, as usual. And jigs just annoyed me.
I knew he had been talking shit and then when I'm the one to confront him about he, he guest's out and can't man up to it.
Maybe that's why you piss me off so easily now, now that I've seen the real you. God what a waste.
Then we went to Pamplin to se your parents. :) I got to see Snuggles, I feel so bad for since he got hit by a damn truck. Fuck that truck.
A talk with your parents went unfortunate. I wish I could fix them so they are the people you remember. I want you to be happy as humanly possible. An they make you angry enough to where you just walk out, and your whole night is ruined? No, That is honestly not okay with me.
I'm glad that I could help in the slightest, I always will be there for you. Always.
I held your hand while we drove home, probably my favourite part.
Anyway, I'm falling hard. I mean, Hard.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
We finally have a name for the anniversary frog.
He/She/Its name is Boo! I think its adorable. And it completely fits the frog since its an albino. Lolz
Tonight once again was wonderful. I feel like I say that a lot but that's honestly how every night with you is.
We went to the Muse. Moved seats about 4 times haha. You held my opposite hand while I wrote. Kicking your butt in Words with Friends :3 drove around in the mini cooper again, too bad you hafta give it back tomorrow...lol. Went to Dick's sporting goods. Played with the putting green, planned a camping/hiking trip.
Came home to find that I forgot to log out of my facebook on the laptop and my Mum found it...Gahhh , she looked through your pictures...At least she found them entertaining.
I can't believe things are working out the way they are. If I get accepted into at least one college, I can honestly say for the first time that I am perfectly happy with who I am and what my life has become.
He/She/Its name is Boo! I think its adorable. And it completely fits the frog since its an albino. Lolz
Tonight once again was wonderful. I feel like I say that a lot but that's honestly how every night with you is.
We went to the Muse. Moved seats about 4 times haha. You held my opposite hand while I wrote. Kicking your butt in Words with Friends :3 drove around in the mini cooper again, too bad you hafta give it back tomorrow...lol. Went to Dick's sporting goods. Played with the putting green, planned a camping/hiking trip.
Came home to find that I forgot to log out of my facebook on the laptop and my Mum found it...Gahhh , she looked through your pictures...At least she found them entertaining.
I can't believe things are working out the way they are. If I get accepted into at least one college, I can honestly say for the first time that I am perfectly happy with who I am and what my life has become.
Sunday, January 8, 2012
"your house looks idyllic"
change house, to today :)
I've realized that I mainly use this website as a online play-by-play of what my days consist of. With a couple of shots of how I feel.
We played Resident Evil 5 for like two hours. Good god. That was stressful. I hate it when I first start a game like that and I'm awful at it. He picks it up so quickly, and I just don't.
Got some Subway while him and jigs went to put air back into Matthew's tire. Perused the mall like the damn Three Musketeers. We went to that weird ass toy store where Forever 21 used to be. Then looked at that calender kiosk.
We were checking out while jigs was talking to pookie's sister and the lady was like, " has anyone ever told you that you look like a young Elizabeth Taylor? You are absolutely gorgeous, your eyes are perfect." It gave me a little confidence boost. I was already sorta self conscious since I didn't put on make-up that morning.
I hardly ever think I'm pretty. I normally think the exact opposite. Before 6 months ago, the only time I've felt genuinely pretty was Prom.
Matthew is aware of my self-conciousness. He knows that I don't find myself attractive. He tells me every time we see each other how he thinks I'm pretty, beautiful, blah blah blah. I truly appreciate it. It's helping me to truly like and love myself.
Then we left the mall, and took an impromptu trip to Appomattox. I drove Jig's trucks. I'm not normally a truck fan, but that truck I love. We went to Delbert's house, where I got to see the sweetest Answer Hound, Pete. :) He's fucking adorable. My beloved Walker was there too. He's such a sweetie. He's one of two dad's in "The Group" Olivia is doll face and just like her daddy. The hairy goat man Seth was also there, but since he shaved recently, he actually wasn't that bad. Haha. That sounds awful. Then Nathan showed up, and it was just awful. Pete can't stand Nathan, I can't really either. He's a little too weird. Haha.
Anyway, this post is fucking long. Damn. I didn't realize it . :P but this is the only place where I can't honestly post everything that I do, think, and believe.
I don't even care that maybe no one will read it.
I've realized that I mainly use this website as a online play-by-play of what my days consist of. With a couple of shots of how I feel.
We played Resident Evil 5 for like two hours. Good god. That was stressful. I hate it when I first start a game like that and I'm awful at it. He picks it up so quickly, and I just don't.
Got some Subway while him and jigs went to put air back into Matthew's tire. Perused the mall like the damn Three Musketeers. We went to that weird ass toy store where Forever 21 used to be. Then looked at that calender kiosk.
We were checking out while jigs was talking to pookie's sister and the lady was like, " has anyone ever told you that you look like a young Elizabeth Taylor? You are absolutely gorgeous, your eyes are perfect." It gave me a little confidence boost. I was already sorta self conscious since I didn't put on make-up that morning.
I hardly ever think I'm pretty. I normally think the exact opposite. Before 6 months ago, the only time I've felt genuinely pretty was Prom.
Matthew is aware of my self-conciousness. He knows that I don't find myself attractive. He tells me every time we see each other how he thinks I'm pretty, beautiful, blah blah blah. I truly appreciate it. It's helping me to truly like and love myself.
Then we left the mall, and took an impromptu trip to Appomattox. I drove Jig's trucks. I'm not normally a truck fan, but that truck I love. We went to Delbert's house, where I got to see the sweetest Answer Hound, Pete. :) He's fucking adorable. My beloved Walker was there too. He's such a sweetie. He's one of two dad's in "The Group" Olivia is doll face and just like her daddy. The hairy goat man Seth was also there, but since he shaved recently, he actually wasn't that bad. Haha. That sounds awful. Then Nathan showed up, and it was just awful. Pete can't stand Nathan, I can't really either. He's a little too weird. Haha.
Anyway, this post is fucking long. Damn. I didn't realize it . :P but this is the only place where I can't honestly post everything that I do, think, and believe.
I don't even care that maybe no one will read it.
Friday, January 6, 2012
Mine.
This is the big weekend. Meeting the parents. I never thought that when this, at one time, "fling" would turn into this beautiful thing we have now. I figured whatever we had would fizz out by September.
You make every one of my days infinitely better. I fall harder and harder each day. I can't help myself. I want you all the time. I want the goose bumps I get whenever I'm with. I love feeling the butterflies in my stomach go insane as soon as I grab your hand.
What I got to wake up to this morning:
"You are my first thought every morning. Due in part to the many things that you are: beautiful, smart, cheery; a list that could on forever. You make me so happy, and you are absolutely perfect even if you say you aren't."
I love those messages. They are my absolute favourite thing. Besides you of course. <3
You make every one of my days infinitely better. I fall harder and harder each day. I can't help myself. I want you all the time. I want the goose bumps I get whenever I'm with. I love feeling the butterflies in my stomach go insane as soon as I grab your hand.
What I got to wake up to this morning:
"You are my first thought every morning. Due in part to the many things that you are: beautiful, smart, cheery; a list that could on forever. You make me so happy, and you are absolutely perfect even if you say you aren't."
I love those messages. They are my absolute favourite thing. Besides you of course. <3
Ma Jake.
I'm pretty sure that you could sum Jacob's surprise party tonight in two words... FUCKING SUCCESSFUL. I am so glad that Jacob got a wonderful party for his 18th birthday. He definitely deserves it. He rarely asks for anything for himself. This has been a big year for him. He marched his first year in a drum corp. He started college as a high school senior.
I love him so much. He's been one my all time best friends since the 6th grade. We can talk about anything, and spend hours doing it. I remember one afternoon, we spent 4 hours sitting in the parking lot of Lori's just talking about life and what we wanted from it. It was marvelous.
I love him so much. He's been one my all time best friends since the 6th grade. We can talk about anything, and spend hours doing it. I remember one afternoon, we spent 4 hours sitting in the parking lot of Lori's just talking about life and what we wanted from it. It was marvelous.
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