that was embarrassing....

So, I got home though from Caitlyn's and picked up some dinner along. My mother unexpectedly fell asleep before any eating or movie watching could be accomplished. So around 9-ish, I asked my dad if I could go out for about an hour just to get some fresh air.

I took Matthew some hot tea so that he would feel better to go to New York tonight (lucky bastard) (and I don't get to go, wah) , and I'm getting out of the car saying goodbye so that he could get back to his deliveries. I'm trying to be all cute and some corny shit, so I lean back into the car for a little extra, and the dumb fuck didn't put the car in park.... -__- so in the middle of the shenanigans, the car starts rolling, with my damn feet on the ground.
The whole escapade ended with me being taken out by at the knees by a car door and almost falling on my ass... Thank god no one saw it. :P

I'll miss him though... Even if its just for like two days.

This boy has my whole heart; it makes me feel uneasy sometimes, feeling this vulnerable. But everyday, my heart grows fonder.

holy shits man.

I haven't been on this thing in like forever. I used to watch it like a hawk to see if anyone had posted a single letter. Ah-hah. Silly me.

My feelings now you ask?   :
-super pumped for tomorrow. Matthew and I get to exchange our presents. I feel kinda bad cuz I got him cologne which I love too. Haha.
-odd because JT texted me. I haven't talked to him since literally May or so? I still find him wonderful. But Matthew is damn near perfect. He's perfectly him.
-elated because I truly freaking realize I have the best friends in the whoooooole fucking world. I.e.: the best friends(Caitlyn, Nicole, Lydia, Christopher, and Matthew:]), and CARTER, Donna, Sam, Jigs, Adam, Delbert, Walker, Jordan, Matt Taylor, Grace, John Taylor, Dane, and everyone else I'm too stupid to remember,
-nervous as hell- I have to play the damn marimba. Don't get me wrong, I'm fucking excited. But what if I mess up...unfortunately that's inevitable.
-happy because its CHRISTMAS. If someone doesn't get excited for that I'll personally kick them in the face with my fist.
-EXCITED to go to the beach to see my grandparents. They are the bomb. My grandpa drives a sports car at 84. Fuck yeah!

I guess that's all for now. :P this is so cheesy. But I just feel like typing a shit ton since I got physical keyboard attachment for my touchpad! :)

my dear.

I have been grounded for the first time this past week...


It friggin sucks ass. I have never been so bored and confined. I haven't had my car either... but the grounding and the lack of a vehicle aren't connected. ;P

which meant....no seeing my dear all week! blasphemy, I know! Damn you teenage angst. Finally, friday i had my fill. that sounds awful, I'm sorry. he's such a sweetie.
I can't describe how fulfilling and complete I feel. I am not afraid to be my quirky shy self that no one else sees.
but shhh, its a secret. :P

"you smiling makes me happy. and thats all I need."
I told you he was sweet. lolz :P

This Saturday. Septermber 3, 2011, was perhaps the best day of my existence...


That is all...

Awwwww eff.

I forgot about school tomorrow.

I miss summer already.

Mine.

That's what you said to me. You wouldn't explain.

I need to stop. Haha.

I have unfortunately but willingly yet ever so cliche-like been "swept off my feet."
all he needs is shiny armor and a sword or some shit.

Polos.

I have found what it means to be truly happy, I think.

It changes everything that I do during the day.
Makes me smile a bit bigger.
Laugh a little harder.
Hug a little closer.
And trust a little deeper.

These feelings and words and touches are all completely new to me. I'm scared to express them but I know I should. "I just want to lay here with you and talk till I see the sun"

You can make my heart do somersaults, flutter, and completely melt. Maybe that's why I'm so scared.

"I want to keep you till next year, if you'll have me"
probably, the sweetest sentence anyone has ever said to me.

Slackin'

I haven't done this in a while. Maybe that's why I feel so stuffy. So prepare for a long post filled with short bits of information.
Let's begin.

Band camp has been time consuming but fun. At first I wasn't too keen on actually stayng with it, but learning drill these past few days have really reminded me why I do that bullshit in basics for hours on end. I greatly appreciate the lighter drum which has been bestowed upon me this year. Now I just need to memorize! -__-

Today at the end of afternoon practice truly made my day. Jacob was on drumset, Dylan on the nice marimba, Tim on vbes, and myself on the remaning marimba, and we played the pits warmup. It was absolutely magical. I kept smiling and looking at Dylan. We kept laughing and I wasn't that terrible. We now have our own four member pit :)

I got tazed for the first time the other day. Must say, not one of my happiest moments. Getting shocked by nine million volts is surprisingly painful. It instantly brought me to tears, which is when you really realized that you had gtten me. I proceeded to chase you and smack you in the head a few good times. A punsihment pretty lax compared to what I received.
The hug after was the best one ever.

I saw my long lost friend this weekend. I love when they lie to you and say "oh yeah, we'll still be friends" that's biggest pile of shitty shit I've ever heard. I feel bad that that sounds so bitchy, idgaf. It had been like three months since we had talked and longer than that since we've seen each other. I hope that damn monster was good enough.

I had never thought I could spend so much time with one person and not get annoyed. We can be honest and happy and carefree together. I catch you watching me from time to time on accident, I don't mind really, just kinda will ctach me off guard sometimes. I wish I had the ability to see the future or knew someone that could, cause at this point I'm really curious what would happen.

And finally, for my last and definitely most important little blurb.

I literally cannot grasp the fact that in almost 4 days i'll be losing my best friend. I can't believe the day is almost here. I remember back during winterline when the accpetance letter came in that august 14th is ages and eons away. Now look. I can see it on the calendar. Oddly for me, it's going to be scary without you here. Although it was only about a year ago, I couldn't imagine a time when we weren't this close.
I love you so much Chris.
In this past year, you've filled my life with endless happiness, joy, and laughter. I don't think I could thank you enough for those times that you've been there for me. Most times, I bet you didn't realize you made a difference.
I know you'll kick some major ass at UR. Show them what a real guido is. :)
The Cool Kids, forever and always. <3

I.Q.

The mystery is still developing. Still making it's twists and turns. While rounding some, we must be careful, or we might slip. Considering my fear of falling, I guarantee we won't.

That's where Christina Perri comes in.
"I know that you'll catch me, cuz i'm already falling"
for some reason, you put that song on your phone and you played it while you held my hand.

Confusing signals, my friend.

But it's alright. I'm having a blast on whatever you want to call this. It has transformed my summer into a masterpiece.

It angers me though, my summer ends tomorrow. -__-

This past week has been one of the best in my life.
It was the National Junior Angus Show. The biggest show in the country and I had the chance to be apart of it.
I met so many amazing people that I can't wait to see in a few weeks.
I didn't win, but I don't care. I showed all three of my heifers well and that's all I could ask for.

You were my little support system all week. You calmed me down wihen it was show time and made me laugh out loud from complete silence.
I think we are both starting to realize the affect we have on each other. And frankly, it scares the shit out of me.

But it'll be alright.

Everything always is.

I've thought about this weekend all day. I feel like I back in chool due to the anticipation of the weekend.
I've thought about what is gonna happen. How close are we going to be. Youve been in my head all day... Youre darling hazel eyes which I could look into all day.

I kwant to be that awesome girl you describe. You said you caouodnt hold eye contact with someone that made you nervous... You couldn't hold it for two seconds.
You give me the good nerves.

You told me about your ideal date. Oh my lawd. How perfect.

I don't wanna to talk about you anymore and let my hopes rise even higher. I'll see ya Saturday.

Today...

was all of the good adjectives you could possibly think of.

I took my picture to Lynchburg Livestock market and watched some of the sale. I had never seen so many cows in one setting. It was amazing to watch.
Then I had lunch at Moe's. I had never been there. I was rather impressed. At least, what o got was. Haha.
Then I went to peaks view park. Where we talked for hours. Literally. It was weird. It was so effortless. We saw baseball games begin and end. The conversation never seemed to stop. I watched you study. You watched me watch the sky. I couldn't figure it out. I trusted you immediately. I hope I don't end up regretting it.
I'm still gonna call you 'kid'

You make me happy

I can't really describe the level of happiness that emitted from this weekend. But I guess I'll try.

Friday: cait, Allison and I went to the International House of Pancakes. Yumyumyum. We saw these two dudes help an elderly lady from hercar to booth. Sweetest thing I've ever seen. Allison gave them a much deserved highfive. :3 then we ran a few errands then I boogie on home to get ready! Finally all of my favourite people began to arrive. Mum served some delicious chicken parm. Yum x7. I thank all of you for all my lovely presents. <3. The Cool Kids did waaaaaay to much. :P we sang the traditional song waaaaay off key and devoured some cake. Then it was hot tub time. We managed to fit eight people into a four person pool. We gave the flowers a good drench since we displaced half of the water. It was so lovely. Haha. We played jumanji. Fetched a cube if dr pepper. Drank all but 6 of them. Game of things. And stayed up till 4. It was beyond amazing.

Saturday: everyone was in a tizzy to clean up. The layne's invited a few of up to lake :) so people respectively peaced out and I thanked them for an awesome birthday. I got my shit together and met the boat up at the food lion. :) christopher and I drove up together. Yay. Jammin to Nicki Minaj. <3 watching chaps and Chris tube was freaking hilarious. My bum is bruised thanks to it though. Donna and I were crazy, as usual. It was the perfect end to my birthday.

I love you guys so much, especially you. So much. I enjoy the time we spend together. I can truly be myself around you. It doesn't require trying. I can't believe it's so effortless.
The Cool Kids always. <3

I haven't really blogged much lately. Not that I haven't been doing much. I've actually been extremely busy.
I've just been unusually apathetic. I haven't really been too emotional about anything.
I received heartbraking news and I shed one measely tear.

I apologize for being boring.

Tomorrow's my birthday!! It's kind of weird for me, thinking back to how this year has turned. I can't birve that this time last year, I wasn't even talking to those I'm closest to today.

This past week has been awesome. It's been carefree, happily spent doing nothing. And fishing is always fun.

I wish you would attend on my birthday. I would love to see you. But I guess this is a small taste of what's ahead.

Cool Kids forever and always.

I love my Reginald. I love every second I get to spend with him. I always feel odd writing about an animal but he's so special. He understands. Which will always be fascinating to me.

He knew, that today he should just let me lay on him. And he did. He didn't move an inch. He was my ever standing brick wall, the one always there for me.

The sight of him hauled away is something too painful for me to imagine.

So I won't.

Everything that I want is relatively simplistic.
I want to my happy ever after, which unfortunately, is very cliche and overused by sappy myspace users. IDGAF.
You have paved that path for me.

I don't like writing about you because all of what you are cannot be summed into the words I type. The happiness that fills me is unable to be understood. I have yet to understand it myself.

I do not want to sell you short. Which is something I'm afraid might happen if I attempt to describe your hand in mine.

You scare the living hell out me.
Automatically, my busy, naive head starts formulating the hundreds of possibilities of us.
Some, make me want to puke. Yet some, make me want to pull you closer and refuse to leave.
Just please, Never Let Me Go.

Tomorrow

...is your birthday :)
I wish I could spend it with you. I can see it now.

It would be an amazing day. We would do little to nothing but it would mean the world to me. I got a small taste of what it was like. And I hope one day, we'll make it happen.

Timothy is coming to practice tomorrow :) that's basically the only thing I'm looking forward to.

I've felt odd today... I don't like it.
Not at all.

:)

I have honestly not stopped smiling this entire weekend. I am very thrilled with how these past few days turned out. I hadn't expected it to be this phenomenal.

I FOUND OUT THAT I WILL BE SHOWING AT THE NATIONAL JUNIOR ANGUS COMPETITION!!! I got the application and everything. Finally :)

Friday was my first day at my first real job :) I take people's orders at an Asian restaurant. It's just the most fun. Later on my darling friends come over: Christopher, Donna, and Carter. :) they all make me truly happy and I love them dearly.

Saturday was relatively unproductive. I sadly found my prom dress for next year. I haven't decided whether that's a good thing or not. :P I then went over to Bonnie's and I finished my record book for 4-H. Worked a little more at Beijing. then traveled on over to Caitlyn's for another awesome night. :) We made an almost midnight run to Sheetz, but don't worry, Mum, we got home before midnight.

And here we are... Sabbath. Didn't go to church...so I prolly shouldn't call it that. :P I spent most of the day wiff mah best frand Caitlyn. She's kinda awesome. Don't eff with her. FIRST SUPERBASS SECTIONAL! It was a complete success. The Cool Kids sauntered to Goodwill and then to the talent show :) good job Chris Rockwell. You did awesome.

Ahh. This weekend was exhilarating. After two years I finally reached my goal. well you're not necessarily a goal, you're much more than that. You gave me the best hug I've ever received. I'm surprised you couldn't hear the flutter of their wings. I could. I couldn't sit still for hours after that.
For that, I am ever grateful.

See you soon. :)

Winning!

That's basically what I've done this weekend.
Shit, that sounds shady and self-centered, but for once it actually true.
The Central Virginia Livestock was this weekend. One of the few things I've actually looked forward to.
Showmanship went well. Andrew and Cameron beat me. But I'm okay with that. They're freaking awesome and i've only been doing this for two years.
Emblynette behaved like a bitch. Nothing new. But she won! Boom! One spot in the final.
Belle won too! Two spots in the final.
Finally time for the championship drive, Hannah had to walk Emblynette since I had Belle. And Belle won! Grand Champion Angus Heifer. :D and Emblynette got Reserve Grand Champion. Holy freaking shit!
After all the classes of heifers went it was time for the Supreme Champion drive. I was sooooo nervous. This time, the judge didn't even have us walk. Before she announced, she said "I've had her picked from the first time she walked in the ring"
of course she had to take her dear sweet time walking over to the winner.

Nevertheless, I was ecstatic when she shook my hand. Me, of all people. The lone girl from a small farm that no one knew about. I could not believe I had won. I thank Belle for being the sweetheart that she is. :)

earlier in the day was the Market Steer competition. Bruiser was in the heaviest class of steers and he pwned all the others in his class.
Therefore, he was crowned the Grand Champion Market Steer. As happy as I was, it made it so much harder to sell him that night.

And thungs have just gotten better since then.
Had some fro yo with The Cool Kids and we definately needed the time to catch up.

I still haven't been able to put my finger on it. But I can't help to think about all of the amazing times that are waiting for us. I need you there with me, for as long as you can stay.


You know what's interesting, I'm using the Internet right now. But of course, no one would understand this reference. Unless of course, your name is Lydia Brown. :3

We're Dumbledore's Army.

I completely pwned US History. It stood no chance.

Yesterday was aweeesome. Besides celebrating independence, it just was. Last year I was so anxious the day before an exam....this year, not so much. I spent time with the simplest animals in the world. Cows. Mine is such a sweetie. I'll miss him come Saturday. I had been waiting for Thursday for drumline only. Best activity I've ever participated in. Lady Basses 2011. I had dinner with the Family, after waiting an obnoxious amount of time in a small Mexican restaurant. So we journied over to Italy. Nice choice. I had forgotten how much I loved mozzarella sticks.
After studying for APUSH, my bed was waiting.

You're still the best thing to have happened to me. Even though you don't realize it. That's prolly one of the best parts. You obliviously piss off one while making the other extremely satisfied.

I know that I can't make you stay.

"It was a lie when they smiled, and said you won't feel a thing."

Today was unbelievably shitty. I'm not one to normally complain about "my day", today's the exception.

I was told today that my pet is going to be sold. And I'm the one making him look good. It wouldn't be so bad of I knew he was going to another farm. Unfortunately, he'll end up on one of your dinner plates.

I rely on you to make my bad days better. You always have. Since over a year ago. And I've grown so accustomed to it, I love it so much. But again, today proved to be the exception.
I'm trying not to be disappointed.

I haven't really talked to anyone today... Except for Bruiser, and sadly, I'm okay with that.

I've basically listened to nothing besides My Chemical Romance for about the last nine days. I haven't even heard the radio dj's. I'm not sure why. The majority of their lyrics are depressing but I still love it. I'm not even close to being depressed, seeing as I'm actually very happy. Nothing can quite trip this stride. And I like it.


Today was very interesting. I almost had to kick a Volcano's ass. Please. Even yall short little bitches aren't gonna screw up this perfect puzzle I've constructed.
GTFO.
Go cowboys! We kicked ass and were the winner of the game show :) awesomeeee.

"wipe off that makeup, what's in it's despair. So throw on your black dress, mix in with the lot. You might wake up and notice you're someone you're not."

None

As in worries. I honestly don't have any. Not that I don't care. Because I do.

Let's go through a quick recap of this Spring Break... It's the only way I'll ever remember it.

Saturday: I took care of darling little Maggie. She's my next favorite dog after my own. I ate an Oreo. And that's about it. I stayed with my mum and dad that night. :)
Sunday: if I remember correctly, I hung out with Caitlyn most of the day. We went "swimming" in ice cold water. Nicole joined us as well. That night, we followed the howling of Sarah and Allison. We adventures all around our little Forest cubby hole. Now I'm a little scared to see the man in the red vest at kroger. I ended up spending the night at cait's. Of course. :P
Monday: My mum rings me at 7:30 in the morning to inform me that cat had fallen out of the screen window and cannot find her. Fantastic. The day was followed by what it seemed like endless yard work. Oh don't worry, I caught Kiki. She didn't like the outdoors too much.
Tuesday: You told me some shitty news. It wasn't that I was hurt, but more astonished. I had sadly planned most of the trip around you and now it's not happening. I went put with Bonnie and Benny to fetch a badminton set. I had my favorite people over and we watched glee, played games, and drove my dog bonkers. The night ended with playing pictionary. There's not much else I could say about it except it was fantastic. :)
Wednesday: 4/20 I spent the whole on a farm of sorts. :D Caitlyn, Nicole, and Plunkett and I took Lori's by storm. Only ordering chips. And terrorizing the asian's of cait's complex. Tehehehe.
Thursday: our group went around forest scouting the best bridges. We hit up
the muse and took entirely too long in walgreens. :) after cow practice, I hurried over to Mi. Patron to have dinner with Christopher. :D it was a good time. Then we headed to jacob's. I must say Just Dance 2 is prolly one of the best things ever invented. After chucking cheddar popcorn, we went home.
Friday: I went shopping with my mum and Bonnie. :) we got some marvelous clothes and some subway and a redbox. It was simple, yet awesome.
Saturday: DRUMLINE COOKOUT! That was so much fun. We played that odd trac ball game and you broke my friggin nail. Wahhhh. We played with fire, chickens, and frisbee. It was a kickass time. Then a few of us ventured down to Miranda's. "I heard through the grape vine that sex is great" lolz. It was best prank call I'd ever had.
Today: was Easter. I can't complain.

A constant this week was cow practice. Although it wasn't listed, I did that everyday. I love it so much. Bruiser and I will leave foot prints on their asses. I'm so pumped for May 7th. :)

This was a really long blog. And didn't have much about my feelings. Ha. IDGAF. I'm happy and that's all that matters.
I've never lost faith in you. I hope you never lose in me. I'll be there for you till the very end. I'm still not sure if you fully realize that. I almost told you. Woops.

The Start

Finally, Spring Break has arrived. I have missed it so.

I can't wait to go camping with my favorite girls :) and maybe another night, the favorite boys. :P

Today was phenomenal. I didn't have a care in the world. School didn't matter. Quizzes didn't matter. But this afternoon mattered :) It was very interesting.

I gave Christopher a hair cut and it was magnificent. I realized I loved cutting hair. He lived as well, another perk :) I hope this becomes a regular event. That would be awesome.

Caitlyn and I proceeded to kill about 3,000 zombies. Only dying a few times. Stupid Zoey, she doesn't help at all... -__-
Dinner at La Ca was tasty. Once again, got suspicious looks from the employees. Grrr. I am not Mexican. I am tan....

Final stop of the night was out in Gooooode. Had to take darling little Maggie out.
She went a liiiittle crazy when I walked in.
Finally got retrieve my son STuD. I've missed him dearly...although his sponge was dry...
Nice parenting -__-
took an Oreo on the way out ;)

Now here we are. Chillin with Caitlyn in the Internet cafe. like college kids. drinking coffee. like a boss.
Sounds like my kinda night.


Today was awesome.
You're awesome.
Let's keep it that way. :)

Oh well

I didn't make it. But that's alright. I'm honestly okay with that. And it's not because I didn't make it and mad at those who did, I cannot WAIT for Bassline 2011. Nothing can stop Lydia and I. Congrats to Destiny, Alana, and Sam Know. :) you guys kicked butt.

Only one more day. We can make it. Harry Potter comes out tomorrow, I get to go play with Maggie and Lily. :) awesome afternoon.

Sam Sam and I got subway and sweetfrog this afternoon. He's such a gentleman. Thank you Momma Hill :) then we danced in the hallway and made fools of ourselves. :P

you grow more and more interesting every day. I'm not sure how much higher you could get. But like normal, you never cease to amaze me.
I thank you for that.

We should go see Rio. :)

Again with the solitude. These past two days have sucked.

Is there something wrong?
Or the more likely reason, Did I do something wrong?
I can't stand this. You are more important than you could ever hardly imagine.

I want/need/have to figure this out.
I'm all ears.

So today as a whole pretty much sucked.

I'm not sure why things happen. Especially knowing that they aren't going anywhere. If you made a substitution we wouldn't have this problem.

My kitchen caught on fire. The whole wall of cabinets almost went up into flames. Luckily my dad can run and was able to get to get the extinguisher.

I'm loving the heat, but hating the lack of air conditioning. And the stink bugs.

Everything else was just boring. My normal night seemed deflated tonight. I'm hoping it's just hating Monday. Yeah, let's go with that.

This blog was really depressing. I don't know why. I know I don't like it.
I wish I could watch Sucker Punch.

The Most Memorable

...weekend ever.

My expectations were shattered. The hours before going over to Donna's, I was restless. I could not sit still or focus on one task for more than ten minutes.
I'm not sure why.

I couldn't help but speed a little on the way there. Donna did my hair, and it was marvelous. I owe you big time lovey. Daiquiris with the ladies was awesome. We scolded the garbage on Disney Channel and Teen Mom 2. :) lolz
Time for the scary part. Putting on the dress. Feeling the zipper go up gave me a whole different level of confidence. But it was just Prom, I wasn't about to get married. I could hear the parents bustling downstairs, and I realized, this was it. I mainly focused on making it down the steps in one piece.
Success.
Our time is here.

I look over and see him, and my stomach did a backflip. Handsome is too conventional and ordinary. He was more than that. In the minute and a half, I received the best hug ever. I couldn't help but tear up. He slipped the corsage onto my wrist, and I remained in awe. I pinned his boutinare right over his heart.
I'm not sure why I was so smitten. Maybe it was the fact that he was all mine for one night. All I could see was him
The first time you grabbed my hand I was electrified. Nothing could match your hand in mine. There was a smile permenantly glued to my face.
Pictures were a blur. I remember hundreds of flashes and poses. But it didn't matter. I looked at you and smiled and they all vanished.

Dinner was delicious.
He said one thing that made me absolutely melt. "Words couldn't describe how beautiful you look." And that's why I picked you.
You made sure I didn't fall. Major brownie points for you good sir. held my hand in line, hugged me when I wasn't expecting.

Nothing could have attempted to match you.

I am already excited for next year.
You'll still be there. ;)

Videos.

May God bless ooVoo. I now believe I prefer it over Skype. Very entertaining. I freaking love it. And I have a feeling it will be used very often come September.

I spent a total of about 2 hours on that friggin thing tonight. I received a lovely tour of the Acquafredda residence. And chatted with the love Sarah Chen and Ashley Kim! :)

Today, was once again, AWESOME. Drum major tryouts are going smoothly and I think I'm starting to actually get a hang of this. Cutoffs are my only evil right now. -_-
Dinner with my loves :) I do honestly feel really bad for those at our spot. We always make a big mess.
Hair with Donna. She can do some major magic xD We then sauntered across the street to Sam's where we also wreaked havoc. :)
I still lost in Kung Fu. Wahhh.

Getting my nails in the morning with Dobby. So I prolly should have gone to sleep right around when I got home. Oh well, you're more important.

STuD is going back to his Daddy tomorrow. :) He's missed him :P
Frozen yogurt is calling my name. The Cool Kids will crash sweet frog tomorrow. Be prepared.

Well I'm tired. So that in turn calls for watching Zombieland.
ONE MORE DAY <3

It's hard to explain how inexplicably happy I am. I have my best friend back. That hiatus scared the living shit out of me. I am nothing only half full. I need, love, cherish, and adore you. And I'm certain I'm not the only one who feels that way.

This weekend was amazing. We had a "good time" and it was another sneak preview for 7.16.11. I just continue to ignore the petty but constant bitching. It's worked so far. Not to mention we kicked ass at Championships. Prelims was the best performance in JF Indoor Percussion history, and for that I am so honored.

I'm not sure if I'm ready for Drum Major auditions. Yes, I would love to do. I'd love to lead. But I feel as if I'm lacking. I've seen the drum majors years prior, and It would unbelievably difficult to fill those giant shoes. Not to mention, if I were to some how make it, it would kill me to leave battery. Especially after last year's season. <3

ahhh!! Prom is this weekend. I am absolutely thrilled. I can't wait to see AJ all dolled up and looking ever so handsome. :) I can't believe I get to spend it with one of the funniest people I know. I can't wait to star in your Oscar winning film. ;)

I wish I had a working bicycle at my house. Like a quaint little cruiser that you might find on the beach. Lydia and I will be wearing a floppy straw hat. It's okay to be jealous. We'll understand.

The time is getting closer. Our time is getting shorter.
<3 Cool Kids. Always.

Poooooop

This week has been miserable without Lydia. I'm really starting to worry about you and nicole and I will show up at your front door tomorrow afternoon. Christopher and I need the final third of the Cool Kids. Our lives are so vapid without you.

Last drumline practice was tonight. :( it was a magnificent season and I am so glad I could spend it with you. So very thankful

I'm ready to kick ass this weekend. I think we could really makes these final runs unbelievable.
"We'll leave footprints on their asses."

Everyday is another day closer to the beach. To summer. To pretty dresses. To week long sleepovers. To spending time with you. To loving Reggie more and more. And to buying more hermit crabs. :)

I'm ready.
You're ready.
Let's go.

This tux sucks.

I've been a tad preoccupied. Maybe that's why tonight utterly sucked.

I love you so much Reggie. You have completely opened up my heart. You've taught me to be patient, to love, to accept other people, and to be a better friend.

I'm losing my best friend in August, I don't think I could survive losing you too.
I hope you especially realize how much I care for you. Always.

One Day

We will watch our children grow up around us. I'll hand you the newspaper after you get them outta bed. They will be adorable and their names will picked out in advance. They'll be extraordinary. And they make us proud. I'm unusually excited about this.

We can start with sand. We can build from there.We'll be a dream. I'll be the architect, and you, the subject. I can see the sun setting around us but with no intention of moving. I absolutely cannot wait.

Friday will be tough. But great. I feel sure 2/3s of the Cool Kids will be in tears. Thigh, that's expected. This is will bring closure, like the credits to a movie. And that's what will hurt the most.
I'm tired of thinking of this. All we want is happiness, and that's what we'll get.


Emmett<3

St. Patricks's Day 2011

Maybe, the best ever.

This one day in the entire might be my favorite. It is the one time for the Jefferson Forest Wind Symphony to shine. All of us put our hearts into those three pieces of music, right at the time when it mattered the most. Straight one's down the score sheet amount to little compared to comments made by some of the most learned conductors. Yes, we do hope to go to Midwest one year. To see all three judges on their feet defies any adjective.

I got to spend the entire day with the people I love most. Rode up on the sauna with my other half, listening to VMEA. Our Yesterdays Lengthen Like Shadows is still powerful and that ever pressing E flat is remarkable.
In a way, I'm not surpised. This ensemble took on VMEA and the most difficult Festival program all in under six months. Both performances left me in tears and wanting to press the rewind button to do it all over again.
There's nothing like McDonalds at 11 o'clock at night. Thank you Mr. Webb. Without you, we couldn't have ever thought to take on such a challenge.

Band, for me, is magical. It's brought me to the best people I know. This group of teenagers, my best friends, have made something so magnificent, I'm speechless.
We've made them proud.
And together,
We can do anything.

I love you all. I never expected to have this kind of friendship in highschool. Which is why it will be so hard for us to spread apart. The Cool Kids are the ones closest to my heart.
L-WOWW, I love you so much. We all complete. Our minds work as one and we make kick ass brownies. We make profanity one syllable and we keep our brownies a secret.Your beauty, wit, and ability to put thoughts into elegant words amazes me. I am so honored to have a friend as brilliant as you. In our spare time we conspire against nagging individuals. And we bitch slap when necessary.
The Predicament- You, sir, might be the most amazing individual I've ever met. We spend entirely too much time at Sweet Frog. Our lives are a parallel to our Reality program characters. You are handsome, charming, and love white cheddar popcorn. Together we will make it those forty days. I want you to know that I love you with all my heart and will always be there for you.
We All Complete <3

Ack!ZOMBIES!

What a kick ass weekend. Our drumline show was absolutely brilliant. We all put everything we had into that second performance and it definately showed. I was so glad to see Timothy! He picked the right competition to come to. Not to mention the clinic was like SOAT-sex on a tenor- :P

today was filled with four hours of killing zombies with my best friend since seventh grade :) we make a b.a. Team.

The idea of taking a saw and just cutting off the top of my car crossed my mind more than once. I saw so many people with their convertibles. "waaaah" I wish we coulda driven around going no where and stop in a beautiful field and just lay for hours. Even though we didn't today, doesn't mean we can't tomorrow.

That one week in July is basically the driving force of my completion of school. Djcjstjxjqjef. That's how excited I am.

As far as I know. Our hermit has survived 24 hours! Yay :D

I love you Cool Kids. Always. <3
=Peyton!

A is for Awesome

Hooray! We've reached Friday! I feel like this week has dragged into next year. I'm gonna try not to bitchbitchbitch about it. But maybe.

I give today an overall A+. Minus the slight confusion on where we shall make our Oreo brownies, all is well. I don't care enough about school to actually write about it.
At the start of this awesomefantastic night, we ventured out to the barn to deliver the citrus fruits, and I got to see my baby boy :) next, we undecidedly(sp) went back to christopher's hoooouse. I got to see the cutest little Maggie. BONUS!: I finally got to meet Lily :D sweetest dog ever. :)
time for some fro yo. All we can do now is to wait for them to call us. The Cool Kids will make work a good time ;) after spending almost two hours in Sweedish plastic chairs the pet store was calling our names. Going in there with no inclination of buying a pet and leaving with a hermit crab was probably the coolest thing Ive ever done. His name is STuD. :)
We surprised Momma Fredda as well when we got home. A hermit crab does not equal a brownie :P after discussing our custody agreement and odd Italian acrhitecture, I now find myself watching Lord Of The Rings. :)

It's been around 8 since we started our pledge. Oh dear Jesus. This will be very trying. :P I need some Sheetz



All in all, I would call that a pretty rad day. No complaints. If not, then you obviously don't have any friends. ;P

I can smell that cold turkey
=Peyton!

Gelato!

I'm up to three posts in one week. I think I deserve a high five. :3

I took that ridiculous SOL test today. I'm pretty sure a third grader could have successfully written an essay to satisfy the standards. Unknowingly, I basically wrote an adapted screenplay to the Social Network. Woopsies... I highly doubt anyone grading those essays know anything about being social, much less an entire Network. Unless they're like really cool teachers like Mrs. Pisarek, if so, I retract that statement.

Of course it had to rain today. Poor Bonnie, after that, I was paranoid for the rest of the afternoon. One of us needs to have a properly working car or we'll perish. Just got conformation on that. The Cool Kids will always have your back <3

Adding to the rain. Band took up another afternoon. At least we got to sit down this time. Playing beautiful. Lydia and I make the Trombone/French Horn duet ever, respectively. Sam Know is absolutely hilarious. He made the 2 1/2 hours go by so fast. :) he's so adorable.

SWEET FROG! Had to run over there. Got some yummy fro yo... But trying to enjoy my frozen treat while driving is not so simple.

I saw a huge field of daffodils on the way to get our applications :)

Don't hydroplane
=Peyton!

Fruity!

Ahhh. Today has been an execellent day. Minus getting screwed by a History test. I didn't know teachers we allowed to give tests the same day as an SOL tests. -_- I kicked some major butt on the SOL so that's good. :)
Practice wasn't even all that miserable. Allison did her magic and made the pants awesomeeee! Good thing I remebered them :P
Sheetz is like my saviour. Went with chris before going to my house to get my pants xP and my little kitten met her first outside person! :) then on the way back to school, chris, the genius that he is, confused tulips and daffodils. I love daffodils ;)
then the second trip to Sheetz was after practice. Chaps threw a cigarette packet at me. Gross...
Today is the kinda of day I love. Nothing could top the little. Good things today. I will miss these the most. And I know it's not just me.
Now I'm home. Ate breakfast for dinner. And my cat is running laps around my room.
Don't forget. I love Daffodils :)

Study your botany,
=Peyton!

Kathy H

Bloody hell. It's been over a month. Whew.

1. I got a kitty. :) she's effin adorable she doesn't technically have a name yet. Suggestions taken. :D
2. This summer is going to be phenomenal. A whole week with my favorite people ever. Dancing on the beach. Going fishing. Staying out late on the deck. "We will experience Euphoria."
3. I practice all the time. Neglecting physics, and other high school classes that don't matter. After an hour of bass drum, the tenor exercises never stop. I've resorted to a mousepad. Lydia and I will go balls to the wall come tryouts in May.
4. It's almost time to start showing cows. Some people knit or cook for therapy, I show cows. It's so soothing and allows me to escape the pressures of nonsense. It may seem silly but I love it. My 1200lb cow lights up when she sees me and she's much nicer than any of you.
5. My grandpa had surgery about 2 weeks ago. After a few complications he is doing much better now. He might even come home as early as Tuesday. :) you're my hero Paw Paw. I love you.
6. It's no shocker, that being an animal cruelty investigator pays literally nothing. But no worries. The balance is paid by the emotional value I get from saving an animal in pain. Don't worry mom, I'll make it.
7. Our group has solidified into a "family" even my biological family thinks of a few of you as their own. We all help, love, and protect each other; something I thought I'd never have.
8. I watched a thrilling movie this week titled "Never Let Me Go." and since then it has constantly been on my mind. How perfectly backwards it is. Starring Carey Mulligan, Keira Knightley, and lydia's boyfriend Andrew Garfield. This movie shakes me to my core with it's painfully powerful script to the lashing message. I know I've been talking about it a lot but something that amazing for a lack of a better word, needs to be shared.
9. "we all complete"
10. I'll end with you. One of the most prominent individuals in my life. We spend an ungodly amount of time together and our subject topics range across the spectrum. Literally. I hope one day you realize what you mean to me. People could "see" us, doesn't mean anything if you can't. But I guess it doesn't matter, I'm used to it.

You.

You've been right by my side since I can remember. From when we woke up till when we went to sleep, we were connected. More like immersed. And we were both happy. I knew what it was like, I had gotten a taste, and I felt like the luckiest being. You were one of two that knew everything there was to know about me. We felt important to each other. We had each other's approvals. I am you. For years this was my reality, it was how I lived. We talked about our future, and we talked about our pasts. You inflicted harm on things around you when words were misunderstood.
Why can't that happen now. Words and actions being misunderstood has what has caused this spiralling downfall. And now I'm afraid there's no turning back. You have been influenced by negativity. By insecurity. In a way I blame you, in others I don't. But yet, I haven't changed. I haven't had a dramatic personality alteration. I have remained the common denominator. Too bad it doesn't matter.

It will all be over soon. It doesn't matter. You don't matter. I do.