that was embarrassing....

So, I got home though from Caitlyn's and picked up some dinner along. My mother unexpectedly fell asleep before any eating or movie watching could be accomplished. So around 9-ish, I asked my dad if I could go out for about an hour just to get some fresh air.

I took Matthew some hot tea so that he would feel better to go to New York tonight (lucky bastard) (and I don't get to go, wah) , and I'm getting out of the car saying goodbye so that he could get back to his deliveries. I'm trying to be all cute and some corny shit, so I lean back into the car for a little extra, and the dumb fuck didn't put the car in park.... -__- so in the middle of the shenanigans, the car starts rolling, with my damn feet on the ground.
The whole escapade ended with me being taken out by at the knees by a car door and almost falling on my ass... Thank god no one saw it. :P

I'll miss him though... Even if its just for like two days.

This boy has my whole heart; it makes me feel uneasy sometimes, feeling this vulnerable. But everyday, my heart grows fonder.

holy shits man.

I haven't been on this thing in like forever. I used to watch it like a hawk to see if anyone had posted a single letter. Ah-hah. Silly me.

My feelings now you ask?   :
-super pumped for tomorrow. Matthew and I get to exchange our presents. I feel kinda bad cuz I got him cologne which I love too. Haha.
-odd because JT texted me. I haven't talked to him since literally May or so? I still find him wonderful. But Matthew is damn near perfect. He's perfectly him.
-elated because I truly freaking realize I have the best friends in the whoooooole fucking world. I.e.: the best friends(Caitlyn, Nicole, Lydia, Christopher, and Matthew:]), and CARTER, Donna, Sam, Jigs, Adam, Delbert, Walker, Jordan, Matt Taylor, Grace, John Taylor, Dane, and everyone else I'm too stupid to remember,
-nervous as hell- I have to play the damn marimba. Don't get me wrong, I'm fucking excited. But what if I mess up...unfortunately that's inevitable.
-happy because its CHRISTMAS. If someone doesn't get excited for that I'll personally kick them in the face with my fist.
-EXCITED to go to the beach to see my grandparents. They are the bomb. My grandpa drives a sports car at 84. Fuck yeah!

I guess that's all for now. :P this is so cheesy. But I just feel like typing a shit ton since I got physical keyboard attachment for my touchpad! :)