I love my Reginald. I love every second I get to spend with him. I always feel odd writing about an animal but he's so special. He understands. Which will always be fascinating to me.

He knew, that today he should just let me lay on him. And he did. He didn't move an inch. He was my ever standing brick wall, the one always there for me.

The sight of him hauled away is something too painful for me to imagine.

So I won't.

Everything that I want is relatively simplistic.
I want to my happy ever after, which unfortunately, is very cliche and overused by sappy myspace users. IDGAF.
You have paved that path for me.

I don't like writing about you because all of what you are cannot be summed into the words I type. The happiness that fills me is unable to be understood. I have yet to understand it myself.

I do not want to sell you short. Which is something I'm afraid might happen if I attempt to describe your hand in mine.

You scare the living hell out me.
Automatically, my busy, naive head starts formulating the hundreds of possibilities of us.
Some, make me want to puke. Yet some, make me want to pull you closer and refuse to leave.
Just please, Never Let Me Go.

Tomorrow

...is your birthday :)
I wish I could spend it with you. I can see it now.

It would be an amazing day. We would do little to nothing but it would mean the world to me. I got a small taste of what it was like. And I hope one day, we'll make it happen.

Timothy is coming to practice tomorrow :) that's basically the only thing I'm looking forward to.

I've felt odd today... I don't like it.
Not at all.

:)

I have honestly not stopped smiling this entire weekend. I am very thrilled with how these past few days turned out. I hadn't expected it to be this phenomenal.

I FOUND OUT THAT I WILL BE SHOWING AT THE NATIONAL JUNIOR ANGUS COMPETITION!!! I got the application and everything. Finally :)

Friday was my first day at my first real job :) I take people's orders at an Asian restaurant. It's just the most fun. Later on my darling friends come over: Christopher, Donna, and Carter. :) they all make me truly happy and I love them dearly.

Saturday was relatively unproductive. I sadly found my prom dress for next year. I haven't decided whether that's a good thing or not. :P I then went over to Bonnie's and I finished my record book for 4-H. Worked a little more at Beijing. then traveled on over to Caitlyn's for another awesome night. :) We made an almost midnight run to Sheetz, but don't worry, Mum, we got home before midnight.

And here we are... Sabbath. Didn't go to church...so I prolly shouldn't call it that. :P I spent most of the day wiff mah best frand Caitlyn. She's kinda awesome. Don't eff with her. FIRST SUPERBASS SECTIONAL! It was a complete success. The Cool Kids sauntered to Goodwill and then to the talent show :) good job Chris Rockwell. You did awesome.

Ahh. This weekend was exhilarating. After two years I finally reached my goal. well you're not necessarily a goal, you're much more than that. You gave me the best hug I've ever received. I'm surprised you couldn't hear the flutter of their wings. I could. I couldn't sit still for hours after that.
For that, I am ever grateful.

See you soon. :)

Winning!

That's basically what I've done this weekend.
Shit, that sounds shady and self-centered, but for once it actually true.
The Central Virginia Livestock was this weekend. One of the few things I've actually looked forward to.
Showmanship went well. Andrew and Cameron beat me. But I'm okay with that. They're freaking awesome and i've only been doing this for two years.
Emblynette behaved like a bitch. Nothing new. But she won! Boom! One spot in the final.
Belle won too! Two spots in the final.
Finally time for the championship drive, Hannah had to walk Emblynette since I had Belle. And Belle won! Grand Champion Angus Heifer. :D and Emblynette got Reserve Grand Champion. Holy freaking shit!
After all the classes of heifers went it was time for the Supreme Champion drive. I was sooooo nervous. This time, the judge didn't even have us walk. Before she announced, she said "I've had her picked from the first time she walked in the ring"
of course she had to take her dear sweet time walking over to the winner.

Nevertheless, I was ecstatic when she shook my hand. Me, of all people. The lone girl from a small farm that no one knew about. I could not believe I had won. I thank Belle for being the sweetheart that she is. :)

earlier in the day was the Market Steer competition. Bruiser was in the heaviest class of steers and he pwned all the others in his class.
Therefore, he was crowned the Grand Champion Market Steer. As happy as I was, it made it so much harder to sell him that night.

And thungs have just gotten better since then.
Had some fro yo with The Cool Kids and we definately needed the time to catch up.

I still haven't been able to put my finger on it. But I can't help to think about all of the amazing times that are waiting for us. I need you there with me, for as long as you can stay.


You know what's interesting, I'm using the Internet right now. But of course, no one would understand this reference. Unless of course, your name is Lydia Brown. :3

We're Dumbledore's Army.

I completely pwned US History. It stood no chance.

Yesterday was aweeesome. Besides celebrating independence, it just was. Last year I was so anxious the day before an exam....this year, not so much. I spent time with the simplest animals in the world. Cows. Mine is such a sweetie. I'll miss him come Saturday. I had been waiting for Thursday for drumline only. Best activity I've ever participated in. Lady Basses 2011. I had dinner with the Family, after waiting an obnoxious amount of time in a small Mexican restaurant. So we journied over to Italy. Nice choice. I had forgotten how much I loved mozzarella sticks.
After studying for APUSH, my bed was waiting.

You're still the best thing to have happened to me. Even though you don't realize it. That's prolly one of the best parts. You obliviously piss off one while making the other extremely satisfied.

I know that I can't make you stay.

"It was a lie when they smiled, and said you won't feel a thing."

Today was unbelievably shitty. I'm not one to normally complain about "my day", today's the exception.

I was told today that my pet is going to be sold. And I'm the one making him look good. It wouldn't be so bad of I knew he was going to another farm. Unfortunately, he'll end up on one of your dinner plates.

I rely on you to make my bad days better. You always have. Since over a year ago. And I've grown so accustomed to it, I love it so much. But again, today proved to be the exception.
I'm trying not to be disappointed.

I haven't really talked to anyone today... Except for Bruiser, and sadly, I'm okay with that.